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1 Million children each year do not pass their 5th birthday. 40.3 Million people in the world are infected with Aids. Every 5 seconds of your life, a child dies. 1 Billion people do not have access to safe water which causes death. There is only 6 Billion people in the world.

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Friday, April 28, 2006

deressed

Im so depressed.....Someone once told me that once you n your frens different class..everything will be messed up..you all will no longer b close...How come??..really will be like dis??...I wanna cry..CRY to make it all go away..

what recently happened?..all of a sudden..everything changes..everyone gets tired of everything..I really duwwan to blog tis out..no point de..if i sae..you all read..then thats all..everyone knows..I dunno what to sae already..all the silent mode..do you realise it wasnt like dis last time?...i tried so hard...if you dont like my frens,den i can go less wif them..but i cant ditch them cuz u cant expect me to be solo in class rite..you wan me to understand you..but u also have to understand me wad..you dun tell me anything..how i change or help you?..i really wan to help you..u noe dat??..CRY also no use...CRY wun make anything better...

BRENDA and AMANDA..I still love you guys very much..i dun wan to lose any of you..but i really dunno what to do..im loss..i dunno how to make you stay wif me..what if you all leave me?..im so sad..how cum things become like dis?..how cum all of a sudden becum lidat?...is it my fault?...can you please tell me?..i wan everything to be okay agn...how to cry when i already cry until no tears..talk to me pls..dun silent mode..rememeber when we take neoprints?..or when 3 of us fall down?..pls bring it back..

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

lalals

SIAN. SIAN. SIAN.

VERY SIAN.

Monday, April 24, 2006

OVER

MY LIFE IS OVER...so this blog is dead..die already..Cuz im grounded..so blogging in com lab to tell everyone its over...hais..so depressing..my life sucks..HP also kana confiscated..everything gone..us cuz my bill explode..no more freedom..I really like to sms him wad..cannot meh..hais.also nt alot lor..jus $70..hais..No more blog..no more msn..no more hp..hais..sian...Lets all die..actually,its nt that depressing lo..jus that i cant sms him animore makes it depressing..if nt,i wun even care that mum confiscate everything..hais...Its the same wif evry parent..they always think we're little...why....hais.....

GOOD BYE MY FRENS..HAHAS..
TAKE CARES..UNTIL I BLOG AGAIN..
SEEYAS! <3 U GUYS.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

I going out wif dad..haha..going to bathe liao..anyways,i played with the fonts of my blog..changed it..hope you guys like it..

To my frens::Im fine,dont worrie..jus abit of depression as the hormones are playing me up..haha..i'll be back to hyper mode in afew days..thanks for caring guys!..=))

w00t

lallas..hey again..Last night i was talking to Nataliehu is going to help me make a custom blogskin in one week!!..omg..im so excited..wakakaka..Wake up in e morning..den straightaway online..i haven even brush teeth..jus go pee onli..hahas..counselling 2 of my frens..wa..can be counsellor..Later i going to help JiaQi..haha..wish i succeed..And Candy..HAHA..and i was feeling depressed yesterday..haha..today,not really alot..just abit onli..i should be glad he is talking to me,must feel contented..im learning to be happy wif wad i have and cant be greedy..BUT i really want that custom blogskin!!..hahas..GTG now..

Saturday, April 15, 2006

heartbroken

I AM HEARTBROKEN..maybe i should jus throw this blog away..I dun feel like updating and recalling every bad thing i've been thru..Wad should i do now?..i can erase the past..and i cant live the present..I just wanna cry..CRY..hais..

What did i do??..Seems like the news come then my life move into fast forward..everything turns blurry and hazy..the past 1 hour..what happened??..i dont get it..why have things got to always be like dat?..I dont effing want to go thru all this again..for a bloody second time..but he have to put me thru it..All over again..

which singaporean blogger are you?

WAHAHAHAS!!..i went to Jianhongs blog and took this Which singaporean blogger are you? test..So fun!..Then guess what..I am XiaXue..wakaka..I cant put e link here cuz it will appear too big..But anyways,I rawk and i Am Xiaxue..The test was fun man..lols..i am xiaxue..Wahahas.

NEWS

I have 113 post already..plus this one..yay!!..haha..broke my record of 100 post..im waiting for news..hais..really scared..i tell my fren go tell him..hais..
what will happen?
Will he think im crazy?
Is this the end?
Maybe he will smile..
Or mayb most likely frown..
I cant think
I need professional help..
NOW.

BRAVEBRAVE girl

HEYA!!!!!!!..i changed new skin..this one only has one problem..which is the tagboard..abit wierd to be at the top..but its ok..im in the LOVE mood todae..haha..Its my big dae today..haha..Im going to pluck up my courage to tell him..only that the courage meter is dropping the more im thinking abt his reaction..haha..Im still feeling VERY scared..hais..HOW?!..im in panic..haha..Im still wondering..
Should i tell him?

Friday, April 14, 2006

is this a wonderful dae???

HEYHEY..hahas..Todae is nt a very good day..altho go to many places..but got alot of bad news and alot of things troubling me..Went to Ikea in the morning..bought ALOT of things..i cant breathe cuz so many things pressing down on me when in e car..Then go home put e things and went Expo..Got books sale..I bought 5 books..so cheap..But alot of people so its kinda hard to find books..Den after expo went to eat indian food and little india..So full until i feel so heavy..haha..Den came back home..actually aunt is coming over to play games togather..but too tired..so change to 2ml instead..SUCH A TIRING DAY..so many things for me to think about..
should i tell him?
should i not?
Should i tell him?
maybe i should not.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

YOYOYOYOYO

Im so dam happy todae!..haha..School's great man..jus that Speech day rehersals r driving me crazy..so many rehersals..im so tired and i wanna sleep..I LOVE SCHOOL..monday still mus go oral..haha..school rox..im just so hyper todae..wakaka..anyways,aft school..me n amanda go bac QNPS..was like chase out my e security gaurd!..so no face..den he talk like so proud..e colour of e uni is same as jyss uni..stand beside him im like female security gaurd..den he say say..i fold my arms n sae back..he so tall..haha..den he tell me shhh and dun let me talk..walao..when i leave..i say loud loud AP! to him..haha..regret not saying more..but anyways..cum bac home le..sososososo tired..haha..Got people wanna scold shiyuan and find trouble..hais..
I LOVE SCHOOL
I REALLY REALLY DO
IM LOVING SCHOOL
SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOLLLLL...
wahahhas..

Sunday, April 09, 2006

think

I have to think clearly whether i shld tell him anot..then think until my bravery all gone..hais..
i have to think clearly.
but how clear do you want me to be.
i am confused.
Now thinking again,
the answer is no.

Too scared..back out liao..its all no point..knowing what e result wud be..why make myself sad again rite..

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Such a dae...

Its such a confused day..im feeling CRAPPY..i dun even know what m i feeling now..jus wanna bathe cold water..but bathe liao..Listening to DIRTY LITTLE SECRET BY ALL AMERICAN REJECTS..i love that song..jus now got tuition..now online also not much people on..in fact only 4 of them..hais..i found a nice blogskin but then no energy to transfer profile n everything..

I love yellow
I am SO in love with yellow

Having difficulties finding yellow skins..only keep finding purple..which is amanda's colour..haha..

Friday, April 07, 2006

Many dam moods....

HEYHEY..this week many things happen..haha..talk about thursday n friday can le..lols..thursday gt bad thing happen lar..gt misunderstanding or something..den they wanna fight or wad..hais..but they dunno its all a misundertsanding..whywhy lidat??..y he duwwan to listen to her..hais..DEN today is a hyper day for me..i see him so many times siah!!!!..like dam many!..sumore good view!..hahahaha..den whole day e mood so dam good..until go choir..sian...but becum hyper..cuz gt fast song..den dance dance dance...lols..k lar..need to find blogskin...seeyas..

Sunday, April 02, 2006

lalallas!..its rainy day...

HEYAS..its a rainy rainy day..giving me alot of headaches..my mum jus gt her licence rite..den today she drive my aunts car..LOL..im so proud of her..its like seeing my kid graduate..haha!..anyways..no bangs or wadeva..the car gt insurance anyway..today morning go baibai my ah gong..lalalas..i miss him..going Funan to see my digital cam soon..XD..i cant wait!*starts squealing in delight*..then nw in dads hme..using e computer..haha..to blog..prob going to read xiaxue's blog later..hmms..im so bored..msn is so dam boring too...hais..what shld i do now?????..
GO FIND ANOTHER BLOGSKIN...ahhh yes!..thats e spirit..gogogo!

Saturday, April 01, 2006

wadnow?

LALALAS..im back blogging..anyway, the previous post i left some things out..my mum came back from work from china and bought Adidas bad for me..and converse like shoes that r nt exactly converse..LOL..and a charm bracelet..THANKEW MUMMIE!..i love e bag..love it love it..too much till i dun dare to use..-_-..Now..im still half sick..drinking that brown n yellow potion..yucks..it tastes so disgusting..haha..Jus now gt dinner..beer battered chicken that taste like anything but beer..so im nt drunk..HAHA..im -18..lols..My blog like gt probs..grrr..My new favourite song is totally..HIPS DONT LIE BY SHAKIRA..shld check out her video for it..la tortura too..her belly dancing is like class A*..haha..okie..nt much to blog le..LOLS..byes.