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Friday, June 30, 2006

my first pic using my Digital Cam. =DDD

The box of my Cam. =)

HOHOHOHO! my first pic using my Digital Cam. Have never been more proud-er of myself!!! Im learning how to resize the pic, so i can edit it by paint. =DDD so proud of me right? Im so happy now! Tralala~ Im still super working on it. AHHHHH!~ how do i resize it?! I didn't noe tis cam can use as WebCam. Hehe. ; )

Listening to DOWN. by JJ.

Listening to Down by JJ Lin JunJie. Suddenly feel like blogging the second post. Its been a long time that i blog 2 post in a day. Dunno why. but im feeling sad. yet i can't blog out everything i wanna say. hai. Then so worried about my sis. Feel like my entire world is falling apart. Oso dunno what to do. *criess* So "fan" nowadays, no mood at all. I ask myself is it cos i never sleep enough? but i can't keep lying to myself. I watched a movie before, Aquamarine. The mermaid ask why do people fall in love? Then the answer is "cos it's the closest thing to magic". I dunno. What i feel isn't magic. That's for sure.

107. & ice cream craving.

HELLO :D lol. It's friday!!!!!! Cant even contain my happiness. haha. okay, so i only study 4 periods today. 2 maths, 2 literature. Then got PE. No fun la, take height and weight, then run run. I didnt go, cos didnt change into PE attire. In the end the teacher tell us to walk. So sleepy. After recess got youth day celebration, i don't really noe when is youth day. But they're having the celebration today. It was fun. My favourite was this Hollaback Girl song, when Mdm Teo dance. And the Indian song, also when Mdm Teo dance. Freakin' Hilarious. But the last part, when they all sing together was abit touching. Can feel it creeping up to me. So Xueting and Amanda go to eat with Ms Arnita and Brenda, Vincent and Elaine go eat lunch. sighh. I went came back. Tralalala~ guess today's not such a good day. Oh ya, Media Club got give every member a lollipop for youth day, me and shiyuan get one each!! cos jiaqi is in charge of the lollies. woohoo! Its a yellow/orange heart shaped lollie. I ate the whole of it. sooo niiiccceee! >.< Need to can more sweets. =)

Didnt see him today. So sad. sighh.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

106 & nothing else.

Was late for school today. sighh- actually, not so much of a sigh la. actually it's not bad :X okay, so i meet Amanda at 7.30am at her bustop, den went to buy Mac's two dollar meal using ez-link card. no more cash. My mum tell me to take from her wallet but i didn't want to take cos she need to eat her lunch. scared she forget to draw. Then took bus to interchange and both of our discmans' no more batt so we walk to the library tere to buy 4 batteries. :))) so i can listen again. I decided to walk to school cos it was 8.10 ma. plenty of time. 8.30am den school start. so we walk and talk about alot of things and didnt realise we were late. When we go there and saw back gate nvr open, we knew cannot make it le. So didnt bother to walk fast, no diff ma. Saw Caizhuang and we wanted to first lesson start le den go in, since it's mother tongue. But the security gaurd saw us. No choice. Went in sit down, walau, so many people late. Must hold meeting to discuss what to do wif us. haha. Den i saw him when he talk to his frens. :O lalalas~ den i cant remember anything else. *skip skip* recess time. Didnt eat anything, only bought mineral water. Geography got gastric. shit. pain like hell. Cannot walk straight. so went to borrow money from brenda and amanda, but 3 of us no cash. took from Xueting instead. =/ Go back to class, ask teacher can go buy things to eat ma, she think im lying lor! what if i die huh? which i won't. But how can she not even ask if im alright? So pain until wan cry. At this time, a miracle come true!! I got Curry Puff. Phyllis offered me curry puff. :DDDD So can make me tahan a little bit and used xueting's money for our lunch. Our science,PC and LS teacher gave us his msn,hp no. and blog add sia. Mr Kenneth Chaw. First time see teacher lidat. then today, so many boys crowd at my table, den dunno do what. hmms. I ask then all they say is "why lidat? why lidat?" *confused* Don't get it. 0h!! i forget, another thing. during upper sec recess and my D&T period, i saw him again. :OOO Shocker. That's all ba. nothing much. dunno today is good or bad day.

~~I miss you.~~

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

105. :DDDD wonder why i'm happy. hm.

RAAHHHHH!! hello hello. :D jus got back and i'm already blogging, talk about obsession. Its almost like a perfect day today. First time i feel like studying geography. =)) And i listened, and payed my attention. haha. Won't last for long, but its an improvement. So today during our Pastoral Care, we have to intro to the new co-form teacher by a game. Of course, not after long, i was "nominated". But it was so exciting la, want to be nominated even, so fun. muahahaha. okay, so i said, "Hi, pearline here. hahahahaha. um...hello. I like yellow and got no ambition. hahahaha." So lame! Then shiyuan and jiaqi said that i not onli like yellow but like him, and shout his full name, so ~~damn~~ loud. haiyoyo. I was horrified man. OH! i noe why i good mood le! i noe le! cos today upper sec never school until so late. So was feeling normal and happy. I like Wednesdays. Went to take 291 later on, kiwi go with her husband. Then i want to go 293 at first, cos too many people, but turned back cos figured 293 will be very long. So i saw him. ~~um. cannot rant about it, if not tis post will have extra 1000 words~~. Went library to return my books then went jack's place to eat lunch. :DDDDDDD so nice. $6.50 plus dessert,drink,soup. muahahaha. stoodent meal la. but still same portion. So full. I took the table flower and put it in my hair, like the hawaiin girls u noe, its alive, the flower. Elaine and amanda took pics of it. haha. then we discussed about the difference between Crush and True love. How do you differentiate it? How can you feel it? True love is when the person loves you back but if you love the person? what's it called? So do i have a crush on him or do i love him? so confusing. amanda thinks its crush, like and forget easily. but if its a long time? *headache* haha. okie, thats all. now blogging, feeling thirsty. =)

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

104. I just so damn miss him lor.

HIHI. :D So long never blog. so i separated into 2 post. one is the belateds and this is today's. haha. okie. so i got my first D&T lesson today. And Mr Loh isn't fierce, like i expected. Also had first Geo, duh, it sucks. The end. Pretend to never listen, play with shiyuan, chat with jiaqi across the class, threw paper. All hoping to burst her Veins. you noe, "bao xue guan". She didn't even yell. =.= then me and shiyuan tied my ribbons around out necks, like a bow tie. so cute man!! i took yellow cos she want black. :D so cute lor. *chew chew* eating my dinner while typing. so Pro. muahahaha. lucky today's choir i didn't have to stand behind. haiyo. PHEW! So i went to buy Pudding Jelly Milk Tea at Amanda's house there. Yum Yum.

I miss you. Sometimes, i think life completely sucks.

104. also celebrating my 2ooth post! 27/6/06 post will be next.

OOHS. so loooong never blog le. finally able to blog, 0h!, the joy!muahahaha! okaes, will be blogging about my choir school exchange withBishan Park Secondary school, BPSS and also Serangoon Garden Secondaryschool, SGSS. =]] and my mummy's birthday. Also High school musical& first day of school. WARNING *this may be a damn long post*.

Monday, first day of school!:26/6/06
Was i excited? Yes. Was i nervous? No. Was i happy? VERY. Maybe cos i get to talk and chitty chat again and of course that number onereason that i shall not be blogging about. :D Still cant believe myGeo is Miss Tan. Last year she teach until i failed horribly. Andshe picks on me all the effing time. & say i ill-mannered. gee. Sawhim once today. Little pathetic one time. SOBS. & bloody com got prob.cant use internet. AHHHH!!! hai. Something kept ringing in my head,keep wanting to push it back. Not headache la. A matter. hai.

Sunday: 25/6/06
Terrible horrible morning and afternoon. Partly great night. Mainlycos i watched High School Musical! Im going to watch the encorenext sunday. In the movie/musical,Troy was soooo sweet to Gabriella.Makes any girl's heart melt. sighh. My handfone have to be kept onweekdays again. SOOOO SADDDDD. *brawls* Cant live without the fone.No sms is like no reminder of my heartbeat. cant sms him. no niddescride le ba. wonder when can i get my fone, permanantly.

MUMMY"S BIRTHDAY:24/6/06
Mummy happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to Mummy
happy birthday to you. =))
we went out to eat. Oh, i love my mummy.<33>
Choir school Exchange: 23/6/06
We first have our choir um..lesson? I forget the word. Anyway, it wasa long 3 hours of torture. Mr Ong made my stand behind again.So unfair, have to stand behind everytime. Then all my frens standtogether in front. ARGH. i cant even think. think le blood boil.Its of course not their fault but how can they be so un-compassionate?Im dying behind already, with boredom and their laughters. HOW CAN?!I didnt even talk. So why that Gay Mr Ong have to put me behind?!!Okay, forget about that, let's proceed.

we took a bus to BPSS. Everyone else that i care about got seatsexcept me. =/ Why cant they get another mini van or something?so tired standing all the way you know. But anger turned into laughterwhen i sat on Amanda's legs. Which also eventually she dun let me sit.Guess her legs hurt. anyway, we, elaine, brenda, amanda and me startedplaying a shrieking in the bus. We need to write name on a piece ofpaper so i borrowed a pen from KIMIE, I remembered my manners, plsand thank you. & i even smiled at her, the person i din even like.But guess wad? she gave me that irritated look, knowing she cant say"oh, sorry i cant lend you". So abit bad mood again. I still saythank you when i return the pen lor! So i got down the bus and sawsome guys playing soccer. Cant make out their faces. The ball rollto me so i wanted to kick it back to them. Being NICE. Okay la,we were joking around about meeting shuai ges, so i mus play ma,got chance, can make them laugh harder. but that security gaurd stolethe ball from me! so i was embarassed. get ready to kick liao thenno ball. =.= So brenda and i started talking about hot hot hot ZacEfron, we screamed. Almost got scolding. Then we go to their music room where we have to take off shoes. Grape din wear socks. hahahaha!then have to intro, Elaine went first, then sabo-ed brenda and me. AIYOs, lan mei lan mei. But so fun! very exciting! I cannot control,kept laughing. But blueberry sae until very shaung lidat. hmms. haha.Then have to play ice breaker games, STACK LEGS. And tadaa!, we got 2nd. and my leg was inside the three legs, so was amanda's! Then sang songs and exchange numbers, blah. SO FUN. cant wait for the next choir exchange! (walau, my post so long)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

I FELL DOWN THE STAIRS!!!

I left the house at 2.30, the i went down the stairs. The man was washing the floor and there were water flowing and it was very slippery. I was careful, and went slow. but on my second step, i slipped and fell on my butt 4 steps down. Bouncing on every step.haha. Which resulted in really wet jeans. my butt part is so wet i have to come back to my aunts place and blow dry it if not people will think i pee my pants. Not very nice idea. Knocked on my back a little bit, so pain. I couldnt stop laughing and my sis was like "Jie, are you ok?are you?" pointing out to me that i either knock my head or it hurts too much. So now my cousin and sis is helping me blow my jeans with a hair dryer while i blog, its been a loooong time since i fall down. Muahahahahaha. when i think about it i wanna laugh. haha. :DDDDDDD

Geek in the pink-Jason Mraz

I am totally in love with Geek in the pink =))) Jason Mraz is so dam talented lor. Listen to his The Remedy please, amaze yourself. :D

nine-nine. :DDDD

Good afternoon peeps!!! :D I realised i've been blogging less right? so sad. :( That just prooves my life is so boring. Dunno whether i should be glad that school reopening soon, half want it to happen so i wont b bored and i can see the person i wanna see. ;) BUT my handphone will be ~~taken away~~ from me! Nowadays, something's been bugging me, so far only my sister noe about it. haha. hope its nothing much. :) Actually i was suppose to work at 2 in the aft but was cancelled, THANK GOD. Jus got off the fone again, have to meet my mum at 3.30pm at the sirport. WAT?! argh. again can only online for a while. bitter. what else? everytime got fonecall den gt bad news den dunno what to blog anymore. =/

I miss talking to you. v_v .Alot.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

nine-eight. :D

OMG. my mouth is burning now, my lips are spiltting. I usually eat Macaroni soup wif chilli padi to spice it up but i don't eat it. Just now, i ate and i didn't noe, i chew chew than realise that i cant breathe and my eyes are watering. AHHH~! so hot hot hot. So anyway, woke up today and do 14 fullscap pages of ~~maths~~! Not excatly do la, but copying is tiring too you know. my fingers hurt. I wonder if the teacher can tell.hmm. So anyway yesterday i asked my mum can go buy cam tis sat.

me: mummy, tis sat can go buy my cam ma? so long le.
mummy: *nods*
me: you noe what im saying anot? =/
mummy: your money also not my money wad.
me: oh okay. i will earn back de. Goodnight.

MUAHAHA. see? im getting my cam this sat. hope they won't postpone it again, like every other time. i keep listening to Breaking Free. :D School gonna reopen soon. =(( i duwwan sia. my handfone will be back in the cupboard and only can come out on weekends. what the hell. Must cherish the time i have. :) Friday got choir school exchange. bleah. Counting down to my the High School Musical on Disney Channel, 33. :D Cant wait. jus receive sms. omg. Got job tonite. cuss cuss. walau. v_v

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Summerland

Zac Efron. :D:D:D I hate Amber, she's such a ~~skank.~~ :O

Breaking Free - High School Musical

OMGITOTALLYLOVETHISSONG!!!!!!! Just look at that guy, he's so hot. Sizzle dizzle. :D Im totally in love with that vid, high school musical will be showing on Disney Channel, on 25th june at 7.30pm. :D anyone hu can tape it or wad, let me noe kays?? Cos i wanna ogle at him everyday. ENJOY. :)

97. :D

Good very good afternoon kids! :D I was suppose to go library today, but because of the rain, my sis changed her mind, so we'll go tomorrow instead. Came to my aunt's house and ate Roti Prata for breakfast, don't really like the curry, its so thick it can choke me. Proceeded to do Iconnexion English, just finish the picture, i duwwan to do already. Cos i cant understand what the questions thing is all about. I AM IN DESPERATE SEEK OF HELP, ANYONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO DOOR WHAT TO DO, PLS TAG ME!! So i went to play sims and they got married. woohoo! such big improvment! But that guy's really ugly. =/ And the son became a teen! muahaha. cos i played for about 4 hours. My lunch is Mee Fen and Crab Sticks and Prawn. Just like 3 days ago. These few days keep quarelling wif my sis. hai >=( even over small matters. Can it be that she is starting her puberty and got irritant hormones??? i wonder. Im going to be bored the whole day. zZz. Oh, school reopening soon. crap. on 26th june. why cant they make it 4th july? cos 3rd july is YOUTH DAY!! i am no longer celebrating children's day. muahahahaha.

Monday, June 19, 2006

96. :D

MUAHAHAHA. Im so happy today. :D one information about yesterday i totally forget to add. I went to watch RV Runaway Vacation. :D:D It was soooo funny. LMAO. laugh until siao. i guess that's why yesterday im really in a good mood. This few days, keep smiling to myself. xD Listening Kiss Goodbye now. Can imagine KIWI brenda singing it. haha. and her action. muahahaha. They are having BBQ today. And im not going!!! haha. was not allowed x( I love my fonebook! yesterday while waiting for him, put <3s and =(( beside the people i don't like. Was playing sims 2 nightlife again but it keeps shutting down on me!! & even delete the whole 2 and half hours that i played, din save! So lazy to play again. Gonna watch Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen disc 2, number 1 is lost. haha. No work today. YAY! Oh ya, yesterday my bill came, was $88.00. *bangs head against kerboard, afew times* next month surely gonna be alot. hai, next month then start to worry ba.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

PORTUGAL :D

I love 17.Christiano Ronaldo. RAHHH!~ :D

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NINETY-FIVE DAYS!!

HEYHEY! haha. blogging at my dad's place now. what happened yesterday?. um..i went to work. reached there early so i had to wait. Called Amanda but this grape wasnt concentrating, she was playing Law and Order. haha. Then aft that, i went to work work work. until about 9.30pm. the outdoor performance yesterday was a silent movie and the sound will be played live by diff instruments by 5 guys. Film was called Sherlock Junior. i cant understand it. Then met my mum at esplanade, went to California Bistro to eat. Ordered a set meal which consists of a main course,ice water,dessert. I wanted Chicken Cordon Bleu and Cold Coffee and Caramel Custard. but i cant have the coffee cos i have to drink ice water! GRR~ but my caramel custard consoles me. ITS SO NIIICCCEEE! taste and look heavenly. Chicken Cordon Bleu is chicken breast meat stuffed with ham and cheese served with potato salad. YUM. So after that, we went home. Sms-ed him from 11pm to 5.30 in the morning, wanted to watch sunrise but i figured i'll only see the back of a HDB flat, so i didnt bother trying to open the window. My first time sms until 5.30. Woke up at 12.30 today cos had to go out wit dad, dunno why, im not tired. haha. just super scared of my bills. xD Super good mood today. muahahahaha.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

.quiz quiz quiz and more quiz!!!

Did some quizzes, =))

What is your favourite fruit?
ANS: You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers. (there was no mango, i chose grape)

How well do you get along with others?
ANS: You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

Your Handwritting.
ANS: You are a sociable and outgoing person. You enjoy attending parties and seek attention from people wherever you can. The closer you place your words together, the more afraid you are of being left alone. Loneliness is your one great fear. (small spaces)

What's on your mind?
ANS: You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

What's your favourite pet?
ANS: The most favorite pet of all time is definitely the dog. Having a pet dog suggests that you are a friendly person who likes talking to people. You are outspoken and don't have any secrets or bias opinions. People like to be around you because you are sincere and loving. You don't like to say anything to hurt other people's feelings. (dogs)

Rings on Fingers.
ANS: Wearing no rings at all suggests that you want to live a simple, no-frills life. You are sincere, trustworthy, peaceful, clever, hard-working and always want to learn new things. You tend to shy away from crowds and avoid conflict whenever you can. (wear no rings)

Your favourite Ice-Cream flavours.
ANS: You are friendly and easygoing. People feel comfortable around you so it is not a surprise that many friends surround you. You have high self-esteem and will not let anyone get you down. (i chose vanilla)

Your favourite zoo animal.
ANS: If you like looking at elephants, you are intelligent and have a good memory. You can remember you childhood distinctly and never forget about old friends. You have courage and determination. (elephant)

The colour of your car.
ANS: Peaceful, just and reasoned are the best words to describe you. Friends often come to you for advice when they have problems. You love to make people laugh and gain happiness simply by being surrounded by smiling faces and the sound of laughter. (blue)

Your Pesonality love style.
ANS: Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you'll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call "puppy love". While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally. (HMMM....wat?!)

The Bus.
ANS: You can take care of all members in the group very well. You make sure that everybody gets his or her plates during mealtime. You act like a caring mother all the time. (they can use caring sister ma! why use mother! =.=)

So...what'ya think? :D

94th. =D

Sorry for not constantly blogging, >.< SO SORRY. okay, so i'll be blogging about yesterday and today because i can't really remember other days.

YESTERDAY,sentosa,1pm to 5pm
yesterday was like one of the best days in my life. =D except for that little thing which i probably will mention later. I went to Sentosa,drove there. First stop: Palawan Beach. Me and my sis was planning to Sun Tan but unfortunately, there was no sun at all, but some drizzles. So we sat on sand and talked. There was this teenage couple kissing in the water, the tide became really high, from their waist to their shoulders, but i dont think they notice. So we left and showered. Second stop: Sentosa Luge and Skyride. We walked there, it was near the beach. OMG, its so fun lor! Skyride is this thing which is like a cable car, but without walls, just a bench. And Luge is something like Go-Cart, which we use to go down the hill. Like the one they have in Genting(if you been there). We have to take the skyride up to the hill, and come down using Go-Cart. My first time went really well, just that a Indian Family kept slowing down and there was no thrill. My second try, i was going on the skyride and i was playing n kicking around and then MY FAVOURITE BILLABONG SLIPPER DROPPED! Then i went to go-cart barefooted, lucky the weather wasnt sunny, if not, the ground would have grilled my feet. So i went to inform the guy who's in charge of skyride to help me take my slipper, but he said he was BUSY?!!! and told me to take myself. So i borrowed my sis's slippers and climb to the grass to take, my head could have been knocked off by the passing skyride benches. Everyone was staring. So embarassing. Luckily, i got it. So Third stop: Sentosa 4D Magix. Its like this theater with 3D 30 min movie that you have to wear glasses but the chair moves and there are different effects. So there was this bee, who stug me, and this big gross spider who came really close,the waves of the water and the captain's spit n such. For the spit, they sprinkled water on you, its like EWWWW~ okay, Fourth Stop: Subway Eat Fresh! I ate the ham with my sister cos they made it Giant. My mum had Subway Club. There's Hazelnut Cookie which is so fantabulicious! Fifth stop: Sleeping Dragon. My sis wanted to go there but it's just a stone dragon that claims its asleep and we cant wake it up. i tried to wake it, to no avail. Sixth stop: we took the Green Line bus all the way back to the carpark where our car is and drove home. I slept in the car. Cos i was really tired, but IT WAS FUN!!! muahahaha. this is such a long post, dont mind me boring you please. =))

YESTERDAY,esplande,6.30pm to 8.30pm
I have a working partner and it happens to be CHONGAIK!! muahaha. im so happy. told you it's one of my best days. So we wanted to meet at city hall mrt but i was 25 minutes late! SO SORRY, i rushed and tried to fly! so in the end meet at esplanade, carpark entrance. So we were early n didnt have to meet my boss, so we walked on the stones in the water. SO FUN! chong keeps saying he's cold, and his jacket is this fab LeCoq one, it makes it hard to believe he's just cold. =X haha. So we met our boss and worked. We had 45 mins spare time for the performance to end so we walked around and shared money to buy Cotton Candy, but i ate most of it. Then we went to the roof of esplanade, Its so beautiful up there! and really cooling, saw more couples, bleah, so we went to library, but it was so boring, alot of arts stuff. But its cool that they have cd players where they study and they have cds which include Jolin n Cyndi and you know. Wonder why there's no english ones. So we went back to the outdoor concert and bought drinks. He bought Orange and apple, i was broke. So thank you chong aik, i'll giv you a bigger present on your bday. =DD We go back to finish work and walked to City hall mrt. I needed the toilet, so i went raffles city to use, he's meeting his mum there. Then went back to city hall mrt and we said byebyes. Took a train to Aljunied and meet my mum, it was really scary cos i never been there and there were many ah peks n bangladeshis. Its near geylang right. BRRR~ freaked out. i nearly got lost. So reached home and sms and slept. =)

What's wrong? Did i do something wrong? I cant figure out anything. =( hai. What did i even do to make you so angry or cold to me. Isnt it unfair that i dont even noe anything?

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Personality Quiz

I went to Elaine blueberry's blog and took and quiz that she linked. And here are the results. Look kinda similar to hers.

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

agree?? tag me.

91.days. ^__^

SORRY! so long never blog le. Cos of bz-ness and can't use computer. =/ Gonna blog about *counts* 5 days. OMG. i din noe so long le. 5 days. HAI. I dont even noe why im waiting by my fone. This sucks badly.

TODAY(13/6)
Went eat breakfast with jiaqi and my sis. den go meet shiyuan to go do homework and copy. =X Still suffering symtoms of yesterday, no mood. Came back here, and start blogging. I think i lost my schoolbooks. shit. almost all of them. crap la.

MONDAY(12/6)
Its 12/6/06 today. Meet amanda at Mac, i was a little late cos i couldnt wake up. BUT when i call her, she din pick up. so i called her house and look for her. SHE WAS STILL SLEEPING! and i thot i should be sorry. HAHA. my sis came along. chong cant come cos he had to go to the doctor. [GET WELL SOON,lovable. =))] Went to bugis after breakfast and bought, fone pouch,yellow n blackk ribbon pins which im gonna pin on my schoolbag,pink hp strap,necklace wif orange pacifier. Went to airport to drink caramel next, saw some stupid guys who wanna imitate us. =.= Den pick my aunt, came back from Thailand, She bought me hair wax colour, so nice. They were eating but i almost fell asleep on the table, so tired. Went home and read book for homework then listen 98fm and heard unfaithful. Although so interesting, it is probably the worst day of my friggin life. I HATE TODAY. =(((( shall not blog why.

SUNDAY(11/6)
Slept so late yesterday yet my mum came to wake me up at 10am to go market with her cos i so long never go with her liao. OMG. why today?! Den i dun wanna wake up, so my mum had no choice but to tickle me, my weakness. So ticklish, i almost kick her stomachache, luckily i didnt. So go market and this Indian boy came up to me and told me he lost his father. I so lost, then told my mum who brought him to some other Indians cos he cant speak english. Went home and slept till 2pm. And after that, went out with dad to Parkway. Slept at 1.30am, late again.

SATURDAY(10/6)
Woke up at 12pm today. Den my mum say wanna go praying at bedok. So we went there and stayed until about 7. SOOO LOOONG. =.= so canceled our movie plans, was going to watch Cars. My cartoon version of The Fast and Furious. HAHA. so we jus stop by and bought Caramel. Went home and played Xbox with my sis and then Hei Bai Cei. The losers have to drink this green vege juice. WA! PUKE!. Slept at 3.15am. So late. Then i dreamed that i told him i like him and he sms to scold me. Scared it will happen. =(( Im going crazy.

FRIDAY.(9/6)
so sorry, i cant remember a single thing that happen. >.<

Friday, June 09, 2006

'86th'

Good afternoon. Last night i asked my mum can go to the BBQ anot. She just sae "no". The end. I dunno why sia. i noe she wun sae no de, i nid to find out why. i might ask her again n again. Then i told her i wanna sleep, cos no mood le. Shortly after, my sis oso come in. Then we talk talk. Out of boredom, my sis called him. And talk for the longest 10 minutes in my life. xD Woke up this morning and watched Road Rules on MTV. I am in love with Pimp My Ride and Trick It Out, so nice. =)) Then i was given hell lots of work to do. Write wad essay, wad summary. Holidat also cannot rest. I got homework de ma! Then must finish by Sunday. How to do sia. So much! >=( My mood so bad now. Just got off the phone with my mum. Scolded me again. What the hell. Use computer wun die wad. Everytime scold scold, she bad mood oso scold. x( GRR~ Mood hao hao de, make until like dis. Must off the com by 3.15pm. Good lor her, now no need to see him online, so perfect. Later still got work. I hate holiday life. Dun wanna do work la. HAI~~~ so upset. Dun even noe what else to type le. =(

Thursday, June 08, 2006

v__v

So many things to be HAI about today. I have to learn chinese words cos my mum gonna test me. 2 nights before, she ask me, where is your chinese book?. i went to find. then cant find, dunno where i chuck it. Den she sae " use your meimei one" . =.= my sis is p4 lor. Then i give her the dots look. den she sae "you think even using p3 book, you noe all the words?" Lidat suan me, i walk away, DEFEATED. =(( in the end, found my chinese book. studying a p4 book is just insult lor. And i haven even learn a single stroke of word. hai. Den today, im gonna b so bored. My work was cancelled, so free time at home. He going for tuition, more free time at home. Cant think of anything to do except learn words.
-BRB-
Just got off the phone with shiyuan. HAI. discussed about somethings. =((( sad like hell now. No more mood to blog.

--86.days--

I feel blessed to be able to blog again. THANKS TO AMANDA,grape. Just now wanna blog, then saw my account got extra blog. and im like HUH?! Then i went to my blog and see that all my posts GONE! I called amanda and told her to help me see, incase its my eyes betrayed me. After a while, she found out that im on drafts, not normal posts. SCARE ME. Its cos my cousin played with my blog and made a blog for herself in my account. I GOT A BAD SCARE. if it is really gone, i'll die. >.<

Just now went to meet Amanda in the library with my sis. My sis wanna go with her frens so we separated. Grape was late, as usual. =X Just so grape-like. And WE WERE WEARING THE EXACT SAME TOP, WHITE GIORDANO POLO TEE. omg. sumore we walk together. like twin wannabes. so embarassing. Then we sae Benjamin, WHO WAS ALSO WEARING WHITE POLO TEE. *shocked* Lucky i wore jeans and amanda didnt, she almost did. LUCKY. Then we went pastamania and had Banana Dessert Pizza for dessert. I went to tell the guy "Banana dessert pie", then he was like "did you mean, banana dessert pizza?" Then he laugh at me. =.= Then my banana drop on my jeans and made a mark. So dark cos it has chocolate on top of it. So ugly. Haiyoyo.

BRENDA is going malaysia 2ml for a week. I will miss you darling. Drive safe. =)) Take care and enjoy ur trip.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Nissan Skyline

My Nissan Skyline R34 and Nissan Skyline GTR. =))

I am in love with Nissan Skyline. Walao. So niceeee. Sweet cars. I wanna be driving one of them. >.<>

My vote goes to.......

My Teddy Geiger,Paul Walker,Ian Somerhalder. x))

Just now, was browsing on YouTube. I saw The Fast and the Furious : Tokyo Drift, thats the third of the movie. It's the trailer for it. And i was getting all excited. Cos you noe street racing is so cool and i like that movie. when i watch, i discovered PAUL WALKER IS NOT STARRING IN IT. i almost fainted. HOW CAN?! I think i am getting too much of him cos he stars in Into The Blue and i jus watched it, plus The fast and the furious,plus 2fast 2furious and the one im gonna watch on dvd,Eight Below. See his pic, Isnt he hot? He looks better shaved, on into the blue. His body is like..WHOOSH!. hahaha. im getting all giddy, staring at his pictures. The 3 hottest guy in the entire pearline universe is TANG TANG TANG TANG...Ian Somerhaler(he seems gay=X)..Paul walker..Teddy Geiger!! Teddy's not very shuai la, but hot doesnt mean looks wad, he's very talented. xD I suddenly realised they all got beautiful eyes.

``85.days``

AFTERNOON!. xD Just now, while waiting for him to online, watched Into The Blue. The beaches are so niiiicccceee!. OMG. and the fishes are so beautiful. The way they dive is just pure perfection. ((I also got concentrate on the bods, thats just normal okay.)) Altho i scuba dive before, but its just with the goggles. no flippers so cannot go under. And the fishes only got one kind. Bleah. Make me show jealous. But the water was as blue. haha. Oh gosh, i wanna go diving. muahahha, dive dive dive. See little fishes. I think im dreaming.

I am gonna rot the whole day. =((

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

hmms.

I went to the table. My maid cooked fish my peanuts. The peanuts as in the canned one, brown one, abit sweet sweet one. That and fish. The sauce covered the fish and its watery. I stood there looking at the dish. thinking, should i eat it anot?. It looks gross. haha. I stare n stare. finally i decided to try......the peanut. haha. I cant eat the fish.

How does it feel?

Im listening to Unfaithful again. Then my eyes start to get blurry so i wanna blog. Its such a bad song for me. Cos the lyrics kill inside and more kill inside. Yea, im really dying inside. Fadding away, day by day. Everytime i expect him to care more, it just happens that he doesnt. Everytime i tell my self to be stronger, be colder, he cares and make me happy for a while. I want him to just fix onto one, hot then hot, cold then cold. If he's hot and cold with me, how will i noe what to expect, everything he says hit me hard. Everytime i talk to him, i will end up feeling sadder than before. i told myself i shouldnt take in everything he say, but i couldnt. He doesnt noe every little thing i take note and care for. I can remember his first word to me. exactly word for word at that time. I bet he doesnt noe, he doesnt care, he cant remember.

Some stuff i found. So cute. =)

While waiting for him to finish his BRB, i went surfing in the net and i found these. so cute, it cheered me up a little.x))

Too much feelings,,dying inside

I wasnt like this before i met him. i wasnt like this when i just started talking to him. And when i finally fall for him, i became the me i am now. Cant feel anything besides what he wants me to feel.

I have feelings of love for the guy I see.Does he love me too, what does he think of me?

I wish I could tell him he makes me whole, but I'm afraid to saywhat's deep in my soul.

I don't want to lose him, for I would be alone,and some days I just can't wait to hear his voice on the phone.

He does certain things to make me feel loved,some days he wants to be alone and my heart is shoved.

I want to feel as though I am his safeguard,the one he can come to when things get hard.

I will always be there to help him along,and before we met I wasn't as strong.

I wish I could tell him what I feel inside,but I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside.

I don't think you knew

All the thoughts of you in my head

All the things I would do for you

Killing me slowly....Wishing I was Dead

It's like a drugTaken before bed

Crying, looking above

Killing me slowly....Wishing I was dead

Just found these poems. Nothing much.

84.days

Mornings. Blogging about 2 days. =))

TODAY
Later going interchange to meet Shiyuan, give her some books. And help my mum pay bills. Cant seem to go out, too lazy le. Tonight got work somemore. might go and sleep for a while later. Just now watched The Barbie Diaries. Barbie doll de. xD Not bad lah, like a typical teenage movie. Also another happy ending.

LAST NIGHT
Yesterday, try to stay awake and sms him. Den listen to 98fm. cos 98.7 keep talking and i will fall asleep. Den i heard all my favourite songs. And listen to UNFAITHFUL by Rihanna until cry. The lyrics is like so sad "everytime i walk out the door, i see him dying a little more inside". So sad. Then listen RedHotChilliPeppers, um, Frankie. Unfaithful got first in the countdown. My current favourite song. Then i started to cry cos too sad. Then i got upset with myself cos my eyes will look ugly in the morning. I just cry like never cry before. Flow n flow away. pillow wet wet. Den i nid to stop it so i called amanda. Oh god, she cant take in anything i say, because she's DRUNK. Drank vodka and all. Its her virgin drunk night. first one. Proud of my grape. ha. So i put down e fone and start to cry again. Mix of sadness and worriness ba. Hope there's nothing wrong with him. ='/

Monday, June 05, 2006

CASCADA-everytime we touch

The hot SUN.

Once again, blogging about my "love" as ChongAik call it. Muahaha. My love recently make a skin, The Hot sun, the one that is in ur monitor, the one ur staring at now. >.< ((its so wierd la. my love this and that.)). Oh god, i haven say who. blur me~ its ADRIAN. tadaaaa!~ Im so hyper now. I got a Black and Yellow Skin!! xD how nice! mdrocks990 >>GOGOGO! check his skins out. Im advertising. wahahahas. My love very talented. muahahaha. He's my love. I wish someone would write about me on their blog like this. HAHAHA. I love love love my love! muahahaha!

**Its fiction. He's not really mine and i love him cos of his skins, noe like love love him la. erm. dont panic. haha. I love love another him.muahaha~**

Tears.tears.tears

I just finished watching Just Like Heaven. Its about this guy who moved in to the girl's house 3 months after the girl died. He started seeign this girl everywhere but he doesnt noe why. She haunts her everyday and bugged him. The guy wanted her gone so he promised to help her find out why cant she feel objects and talk to other people other than the guy. She said "when im not with you, it's like i dont exist".The guy went to the hospital where she worked and realised that she's in coma from the accident.He started to fall in love with her and wanted to steal her body back because they wanted to terminate the life support for the girl.And the reason why the ghost can see the guy is that, minutes after she got in the accident, she was suppose to meet him as her sister set them up. They didnt succeed in stealing the body, and her breathing tube was accidentally plucked. Her spirit start disppearing. So that guy kissed her and she wakes up but she couldnt remember that guy. But that guy loves her but didnt want to scare her so he left. He went to her house and to her roof and build a nice garden for her, what she always wanted but never got around doing, then at that moment, the girl met the guy and she start remembering all the days they spent together and that she could feel him when she cant feel other people. Then they kissed in the middle of the garden when their hands touch.

My god, i cant believe i type this lot of rubbish. Its a MUST WATCH. i cried like water fountain. Its so sad. But its a happy ending, whcih doesnt really happen in real life. And there is no guys like that character on earth anymore.x(( oh god, it really affects my mood.

Its 83.days. zZzZz~

HELLO. haha. Everypost start by saying "hi","hello","heya" is so boring. xD Anyway, i'll be blogging about Three days, Saturday,Sunday and Today. *Yawnns* So tired. zzz. I made this post into PIE family colour. So niiceee~ except for that little black there. Cant help it. =X

TODAY
Woke u to a disappointing sms. x(( Den feel so sad. Early in the morning. sms about him.Then got into a little argument with JiaQi x((( felt worse. But its ok now, we made up. Just a little misunderstanding.Then went to my aunt's house, the place where i am blogging from now. watched Zathura. Its so damn nice, so i cheered up a little. Cos' this guy, the space guy, was really good looking, very Man. xD Later gonna watch Just Like Heaven from the Computer. =)

SUNDAY
Didnt go out with my dad.Stayed at home cos My mum got home business and today open house. From 11 to 8pm. I almost died of tiredness. But writing receipts is kinda fun. xP I ate 5 small egg tarts, 2 choco and vanilla muffins,1 small curry puff and drank LOTS of water. My uncle n aunt, together with us were playing tis game using poker cards, the smallest card would drink the water in the cup, everyone get to choose whether to pour alot or not at all. We also played "The acting game", you know the one that the opposite person have to act and others have to guess the word, in my case, its movie titles. LMAO. Its so hilarious. Then at 8.30pm we went out to Changi Beach, go walk walk. I ate Ice-Cream. Cookies and Cream. so NICE. xD sms him for a while. Then i slept, feeling heartbroken.

SATURDAY
Nothing much happened, my parents went to take the new car. Hyundai Verna. Red wine colour.The car plate is wierd tho. haha. SGH884R. Take note, SGH as in Singapore General Hospital. HAHA. hope nothing bad wud happen. X fingers. Went to eat Fish head soup for dinner. Not bad. Bill came up to $94.90, okay okay la. Then went to airport to send a uncle away, he's from Australia. So sad, see them hug. Then went to buy Caramel Frappicino. I bought Venti, which was the largest of all. I was drinking that in the car as they drive some aunties home to AMK. Halfway, i had to Pee, really badly. I couldnt control, so i went to auntie's house and pee. xD Abit embarassing. But after i pee-d, i feel really good and continue drinking my Caramel. x))

Saturday, June 03, 2006

~~81.days.~~

MY NEW CAR COME LE!!. woohoo! xD Its so pretty, red wine colour. wahahahas. My mum tell me to wash the car. then i told her i will replay the scene that was on Jessica Simpson's These boots are meant for walking video. xD wahahahas. Later going to eat Stramboat for dinner. So looking forward. Yesterday midnight, woke up and suddenly got stomachache, then rush to toilet. After lao sai-ing, i walk den giddy giddy, then stars come out. Cannot walk, then sat on the floor, wait until better le than go back to sleep. Den wake up tis morning, got splitting headache. Now like something wrong inside, dunno what. hai.x((

My darling blueberry, don't be sad. Still got me kaes? No matter what, i will support you de. Smile smile and be brave, go ask him why. x)). LOVE YA. *huggies*

I cant live without you, cant breathe without you, i dream about you. Maybe someday you will try to understand. Its been so long, and i will be here waiting until the end of time. I wish someday you will noe what im thinking, and i will love you forever

Friday, June 02, 2006

Cant stop listening to that song. xD

Just now Grape send me song, Full House OST, I think i Love You. That song that i can go crazy over. xD It's so nice lor, the lyrics. I mean, i can understand it, cos its korean, but the english part almost make me die le. haha. Its like "I think i love you", "cos i miss you", "im falling for you". Listening for dunno how many times le today. LOL. So nice. WAHAHAS. Just now let my little sis paint my nails, white. Then my KFC come, everyone eating, i cant eat!!. Then the nailpolish very thick, cant totally dry. So i cannot take it n erase off. xD Feel abit bad, but i have to eat! =X

My first day with the 6 to 11 thing. Didnt go so bad as i thought it would. Cos i think i help my mum jus now and nvr think about it. I wonder how 2moro is like. Weekends surely very bored. hmms. =)

---80th---*

Today i woke up and realised that Im dead. Not literally, duhh. Just dead. First time wake up so no mood. First time wake up and think about all the bad things. I hate phonebills, i really really hate them. HAI~~~~~~ What am i suppose to do? Now i look and my phone, and i hate it. 51/2 more hours to 6pm. I dont even noe the next sentence to blog. Everytime i think about it, my breath just skips, my heart drops, my insides twist. And i wonder, its just afew hours, why is it such a big deal to me. so sad. =''(

Listening to sad songs will probably make me feel better. Cos after i cry, everything else will seem brighter. For the past few posts, i jus read and i realised how hyper i am. Today im back again, like every other post. How i wish Happy things last long. But good things dont come easy and they dont last. I just wish he was there for me. ='''(

I love you, you just dont know that. I can cry for you, but will you care? Things just dont make sense to me.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

79 days from 15 march.

One minute ago, i was still feeling fine. BLEAHS. Anyway, today got choir graduation partay!. xD. I was jus interested in the Hot Dogs. So tasty. I jus take only wad, then Ms Tan say i ill-mannered cuz dey nvr sae can take. But, EVERYONE took le lor. Then when we finish eating, Blueberry, Kiwi, Grape and me went back to iHub to work on our BBQ invitation list. Aft that got play Musical Chair which was ULTRA FUN! xD But nobody play de. I love Forfeits. haha!. I lost on the first round, >.< BLUEBERRY CAN LOR! OMG.water buffalo. =X hahaha.

{We duwwan to hold it at Changi Beach Park le cos all the Gays and Transexuals go there and DO "IT". we duwwan to result in eating BBQed sperms. xD and that there got "unclean things". We will hold it at Grape's Chalet}

So when we go front gate, Kiwi went to meet her Laogong. At first wanna take neoprints together, but then never, miss Kiwi. So Grape, me, Blueberry went ahead. We entered the ugliest face contest!. HAHA! Then Blueberry went to buy really salty popcorns. but so nice! xD Then here am, blogging. And smsing him. wahahahas~. From tomorrow onwards, my life will officially end. No more pearline le. SAD SAD. ='(

I love him. I love him. I love him. I really really do love him. I miss him. I miss him. I really really do miss him.